I don't know, and I can't feel it. So I can't tell.
This is why there is the word perfect, because no one realize the negative attitude about themselves.
I suppose this is one of the god's gifts, to us.
Therefore, happiness appears in our life.
Don't be sad, because you need to be strong enough, to live through ages, decades.
I belive I live because I have to, have to wait till my 'end', where the time I leave the world and people.
Twenty-ten have not started yet, I'll wait for the 14feb.
I will be much more better at that moment, if only miracle happened.